face down into my pillow the itch on my left eyebrow prevented my sleep – and rather than unfolding my crooked arm for an honest scratch i waited – distracted from the sour stench of drool permanent and unexpectedly icy my new challenge to face – erase this small terror welling why does my body insist on alarm local sites demanding global attention in perverse meditation i focused my strength between my insides and without the paper-thin sensation grinding itself with pestle and pain microscopic compulsion i became the animal strung along in the kennel of my own experiment watching – waiting helpless mind over matter it was time one only feels in darkness – time that runs in tighter and tighter circles then – at the circle center the pain was beautiful and it was gone